It is now
12.07am Sunday Morning. A few days back I received a note from Susan in
Adelaide telling me that she was asked by someone in Sydney to buy me coffee.
Long story short…she told me about Club Malaysia South Australia and we hope to
have that coffee soon…and that brings me to this thought: We are Malaysian
where ever we are.
But I am also a
Malay…a Bugis Malay. A Malay who chooses not to live in Malaysia but a Malay nevertheless.
What language I talk, where I live, whom I marry and how I live my life will
not change that. I was born Malay and I will die a Malay. And there it ends for
I am also someone who considers the world my abode. I have lived in London,
Bombay, Sydney, Perth, Adelaide, Kuala Lumpur, Penang….but for now I call
Australia home.
My daughter
lives in Canada with her Family. Her husband is a Malay – well half Irish half
Melayu – and they choose to live in Toronto. I really do not know why. My
daughter had a decent job as a journalist and her husband Emmet was almost
there in his studies as an Actuary and he was also with Butterfingers – a
decent band in KL. But that was their decision and I know better then to ask
why!
My son lives with us in Adelaide. He is still studying. My better half is Greek. And despite or in spite of our entire lineage we are not one mix up bunch of people. Our love for each other keeps us on an even keel. We know where we come from, who our ancestors are and we are comfortable at where we find ourselves at now…and I think we know where we are heading. But then I speak for my family and myself.
For many life is
lived in one village, one town, one city, one state and in all probability in
one country. There is nothing good or nothing bad about that. That is just how
things are. Do I consider myself any different from one who has lived all his
or her life in a Kampong? Yes and no. No because we are all human with
emotions, thoughts and love for those who mean much to us. Yes because we are
all the same because each and every one of us are different from the other. We
need to accept this difference and live our life respecting these differences.
But that is not always the case in life.
I learned very
early in life that what yesterday was and what today will be and what tomorrow
will bring depends on how you look at it. That I can actually will myself to
make good of a bad day and bad of a good day. It is all in the mind. It is what
you want it to be. And that is how I write too.
Sometimes a
thought would will trigger me off. This evening it was that phrase from Hamlet “Something is
rotten in the State of Denmark” That thought just crossed my mind and I though
of what is happening in Selangor now –all the dramatics and we have the two main
guys denying that anything is happening. Do they take us for idiots? And so I
reached out for the pen and paper that I always have by my side and begin to
write. Finished it in about ten minutes and then comes the difficult part. Typing in onto my PC and the grammar
and spelling checks! I hate doing it but it has to be done. Then the search for
appropriate visuals/pictures to embellish the piece – and then publish and be
damm!
But I was still
not finished for the day…actually night would be more appropriate because it is
all dark outside. Dark and cold. I have my sweater, socks and heater on – both
the gas and electric heater. Any discomfort will mean my thought process will
be interrupted…so at the least I need not to be hungry and warm to write.
As I said I
still was not finished. My thoughts turned to those of us Malaysian that now
live in places other then Malaysia. There is always that ‘pull’ to be with
others who are also from Malaysia however long they have been away. No such
‘pull’ for me. I have no wish to meet other Malaysians. No wish to talk to
other Malaysians. And so back to the start of this article. Susan wanting to
buy me coffee and talking to me about Club Malaysia in South Australia.
Despite my
reservations I thought I would meet other Malaysian this time around. In all
the 30 years that I have been In Australia I have never made that effort – but
this time I will make an effort. Why I do not know yet. Maybe it is the coffee
that Susan is buying me. Maybe it is just me. We will see.
HH, I just sent you mail and then saw that you had posted this. Nice one!
ReplyDeleteSteady as he goes okay!
I got a chance to get an Australian PR but gave up the idea because I call Malaysia home.
ReplyDeleteNow I might call Indonesia home