At the Edge of Madness : Ultimately, history will judge the right or wrong of your choice and of mine. I cannot wait for history to do that.

There is the unmistakable odour of fear hanging menacingly over Najib Razak these last few weeks......fear and the helplessness of knowing that his impending political demise is nigh. The sense of an ending is palpable. His waking hours are filled with dread because he no longer knows what else will be put onto the public domain that will hammer another nail into his coffin. His nights are filled with fears - not only of the unknown but also of the known for Najib knows that in the hands of others there are already hard, physical evidence to confirm his wrong doing and lies about 1MDB and the other misdeeds he has perpetrated while in office as prime minister. What will come next?

And then there is Mahathir.

What else do you want Mahathir to do? Anwar stood with the opposition and he was hailed as a Hero. Kit Siang and the late Karpal Singh too did the same when they stood together with Anwar and Tok Guru and the four of them were hailed as our great hope that change will come to our country at last...and it almost did. Now PAS no longer stand with us...it has gone to the other side and so PAS is no longer part of our hope for that change.

And now there is Mahathir.

Where PAS is no longer within our ranks...there is now Mahathir. He has a different political agenda. He has his own focus on what the future is to be. And he still wants Umno to triumph at the next general election, not our side. 

He knows what part he has played in making Umno beholden to money politics. Mahathir is no fool. He knows what blame he must accept and what part he played for someone like Najib to be president of Umno and PM of Malaysia.If he does not, then surely he will not stand with Kit Siang for all the world to see. If not he would not have declared his abhorrence for what Umno has become and what corruption had done to Malay leaders. 

If Mahathir does not repent, If Mahathir is quiet about his part in the prosecution, persecution and  incarceration of Anwar, the sacking of Salleh Abbas, Ops Lallang and all that we remember that he did  in the name of government to the detriment of so many of the values we hold dear as Malaysians...  what of it? 

Look around you and see what is now happening to our country even as we argue about whether we want Mahathir with us in our fight to rid ourselves of this Najib and his wife. Ask yourself if we are stronger for having Mahathir on our side or are we weaker? Ask yourself if we can do with any help we can get from anybody to rid ourselves of a corrupt and arrogant government headed by Najib. And if you think we do,...then why not Mahathir? 

Like the alliance of Anwar, Kit Siang and Tok Guru - Pakatan Rakyat has been and will always be for the foreseeable future, an alliance of convenience. So too will this alliance with Mahathir be.

If you cannot forget what Mahathir has done in the name of government...tough luck for you. I can. These Cina that I have been told many a times in the past are my sworn enemies and are never to be trusted, have now been my friends for a long long time.

And this Umno that I once revered and almost worship as the saviour of the Malays and Malaysia is now to me,an object of loathing and odium for a long long time......and yet no one has called up my past for inspection and asked me why have I changed?

If you are expecting Tun to go down on his knees and seek forgiveness for the "wrong" that he has done in the past or at least to be contrite for past "misdeeds"......perish that thought. 

Why  not look long and deep within yourself and ask yourself why not forgive? Not only forgive but give that 90 year old man some space to do first what we all want to do ourselves - the removal of Najib - and give him our undivided support in his endeavours towards that end. 

Once that work is done, if you believe in a higher being no matter what you would  call it, then believe a bit more that Mahathir will start to ponder at what he has done in the past and in the fullness of time - of which he has not too much of...in the fullness of time, just hope that a higher power will make Mahathir see the errors of his ways in the past...and if that does not happen, and if because of Mahathir's intervention we are rid of Najib Razak...then what will you do? 

Still treat Mahathir as you treat him now? With disgust ans unforgivable contempt?   

Then you are a smaller man/women that I thought you would be. Have some faith in the ultimate goodness of men -however late in life that will come...and if it does not come and he no longer walks amongst us...then at least be grateful that by his deeds, Mahathir has shown remorse and tried to right a wrong that he might have had a hand in making happened some time back when he was indeed King of all that he surveyed.

Surely that alone is punishment enough for Mahathir...knowing that if he had done things in another way, then we will not have Malaysia endure a leader like Najib...a leader with no saving grace at all!

In life we have at times to make choices that are not entirely right nor entirely wrong. We have at times to decide to put aside, temporarily, our misgivings and self doubts for the greater good of things that are beyond our own self. And sometimes, much too often for some, we need to put aside our self interest so that the interest of many others are advanced....and we can only hope that after that is done, they will remember our sacrifices and do what they must to right what is wrong in our life.

Yes I want Anwar Ibrahim to be free...I want corruption to stop. I want the abuse of political office, the rot within PDRM and other government functionaries to cease. I want the real murderers of Altantuya, Teoh Beng Hock, Kugan, Aminurasyid and the many others who have died in custody or at the hands of the authorities - I want all these injustices be righted. I want the religious mafia within Islam to be put in their proper place, their powers immediately curtailed and their prosecution and persecution of Muslims and non-Muslims to cease. I want a clean and fair election. I want to be able to go to East Malaysia as and when I please. I want the people of Malaysia to decide who they want to be their leader, who should govern and who should be punished should they do wrong. I want Judges to dispense justice, not do the bidding of their political masters...and these are, but just a few of my wants....but for now this is what we need to do

Anyone that will work with us for the change that we aspire to....anyone that will work towards the removal of a corrupt and lying PM, anyone that will give us their time and put in effort to work with us for this and more - (even if that time and effort that they put in is because what we want to do and what they want to do are, for a moment in time, the same)...then for that moment in time, we must seize their offer of help. 

Mahthir has done that. The time for recriminations and punishments for perceived or real wrongs and misdeeds will come....not only for Mahathir but also for those among us who have also done wrong...and believe me there are a few of them even within our midst's!

For now I will trust Lim Kit Siang's judgement to stand together with Mahathir so that our aspirations for change will come sooner rather than later. For now I will even trust Mahathir's declaration that he too wants Najib to leave and for Umno to change for the better...for what else is there for me to cling to? 

As I have said earlier, there are times when we must make a choice. albeit in the moment, on what we need to do to archive what we want for ourselves, for Malaysian and for Malaysia. Ultimately, history will judge the right or wrong of your choice and of mine. I cannot wait for history to do that....I have weigh the consequences and possible ramifications  of making a stand on the right and wrong of taking Mahathir at this word - that he too wants change...and, for now, I will not hold what he has done in the past against what he wants to do for Malaysia and for us all, in the future. I will not forget but I will not hold it against him for now.

Let us now move forward with Mahathir and others against this insidious regime of Najib Razak instead of wallowing in academic and philosophic chatter about the rights and wrongs of those 22 years under him. There will be time enough to do all that, and more, once we have the government we want in office.  

I am one. With you we are two. Who else will join us?