We are not born liars. Neither are we born to hate another human being. We are what we are today because somewhere in the process of growing up we consciously or subconsciously took to be our own persona the things that are around us. For most of us the person who lied to us first are our beloved parents. From them we learn that lies are done when the circumstance requires it. Sad is it not to think that our parents lied to us first! Now as adults we are faced with having to tell lies and being lied to. How we each justify lying is open to endless arguments but it can be explained by this simple phase “ self serving”. Nobody can deny that the lying they do is for their own ends.
The problems for most of us begins when lying becomes what our leaders choose to do because telling the truth will destroy their credibility in our eyes. For Barisan Nasional politicians this (telling lies) has become the knee jerk reaction to almost anything that if they were to tell the truth would be unpalatable to the Malaysian public. No need to go to far back….that Din guy from the Home Ministry recently said “that there was no political agenda in the deportation of French human rights lawyer William Bourdon….. he was deported due to “visa non-compliance” and for making a speech in Penang”. He knows and we know that he is lying but it has all now become a game…another lie, another day in government. But then that is the way Barisan Nasional do things.
I do not support Barisan Nasiona (as if BN cares!) I want Pakatan Rakyat to win at the 13th General Election. So what do I do when Pakatan Rakyat leaders lies? What should I do when I KNOW they have lied? I really care not if you tell me that Pakatan Rakyat leaders do sometimes have to lie or tell untruths to politically survive. Political survival is just that – surviving! If Pakatan Rakyat is to succeed it must not only survive but must also thrive and be able to stand heads and shoulders above the corrupt and arrogant BN politicians. Tok Guru, Hadi, Karpal, Kit Siang and Guan Eng all stand heads and shoulders over ANY Barisan Nasional leaders. DSAI does not! And this DSAI is the leader of these leaders of Pakatan Rakyat –the first amongst equal!
Why do I say that DSAI lies?
Let me tell you why. You all know about his time in UMNO and you all think you know what he did as DPM of a BN government. I heard stories and I do KNOW of one or two instances when what he did could be construed to be “questionable” but I would not be able to prove it in a court of law because I have nothing incriminating to put forward against DSAI. So like most of you out there I speculate but speculation has never made anyone guilty of any crime unless you have an army strong enough to act on the speculation and you yourself act as judge, jury and executioner. Mahathir tried to do that with DSAI in the Sodomy One case. He failed.
Since his dismissal by Mahathir from his post as DPM there have been stories and speculation a plenty but nothing stuck to DSAI. Not until Saiful. You can choose to believe what you want but as you can see with Mahathir, our judiciary can only do the bidding's of its political masters if the facts support the prosecution case against DSAI. In sodomy two this is a fa it accompali – a done deal – no if’s no but’s.
So why is so many people in denial? Let me try and put this phenomena of DSAI in perspective. I was at his house when he was released from prison. Since then I have met and talked with him a number of times. I have followed his progress up the ranks of Pakatan Rakyat. Knowing of his past and the flaw in his personal self I waited to see how he would conduct himself as leader of the opposition. Unfortunately at all critical junctures he failed:
The announcement of taking over the government from BN just after the 12th general election.
The loss of Perak and many PKR MP’s,
The Bala press conference and the subsequent debacle of Bala pulling out his first SD.
The comic yet tragic manner in which the PKR party election was conducted.
The Saiful accusations.
And other lapse of judgements by DSAI that has cost PKR and PR dearly only increased my anxiety of DSAI ability to change into the leader we all (including me) wanted him to be. Some of you are still patient with him. Some of you know that he can never change and yet feel that there is no other leader within PR to take his place. Some say that we need to stay with DSAI because he has been through so much and ought to be given the opportunity to lead PR against BN. We can go through all these for and against arguments till kingdom come – but while you are all entitled to your own thoughts – so am I entitled to mine.
DSAI cannot change. He can project the persona you want him to be if and when it suits him. A pious Muslim, a fiery and mesmerising political orator, a family man and a leader for all seasons. But amongst all these persona there is also deeply rooted within DSAI this tendency to self destruct – no matter what the costs to his family, his supporters, his future and to himself there are urges within him that he himself has no control over. And so his dalliances with Saiful is now out in the public domain. And even today DSAI had denied any wrong doings because that part of him that did what he did to Saiful is well hidden away from everyone’s knowledge – including DSAI himself! At times DSAI does not know what he does. I say this because I know some of the things that DSAI is capable of doing….and yet it serves no purpose to put these knowledge into the public domain. All that needs to be said of DSAI has been said. The final chapter still has to be written but I think even with his last conscious thought on this earth he will still believe that he was wronged.
God has not given DSAI the ability to understand what is right and what is wrong in some of the things that he has done and so he will protest his innocence regardless - regardless of anything until the judge pronounce sentence and he is once again taken away to serve his time in some jail somewhere in Malaysia.
Then it will be too late for most of you that have believed in his innocence. It will be too late for most of you that have strives to judge DSAI against the standards of the BN politicians. And it will certainly be too late for Pakatan Rakyat to regroup and take the high ground for the 13th general election.
But what do you people care? The blame for DSAI fall will be put squarely on the shoulders of a BN government that harassed and prosecuted him relentlessly. I will be one of those traitors that have turned against DSAI - one of the many bloggers that have been paid by UMNO to do their dirty work for them. Whatever the truth is what I know will happen is this. There are too many people who now know the truth about DSAI –too many of us that will not keep quiet and allow DSAI to have the opportunity of doing to our country what he has done in UMNO and what he has done within PKR. It is only because we have leaders now within Pakatan Rakyat that will not allow DSAI to wreck his influence within PR that PR is still without the debilitating influence that DSAI could inflict upon PR. Thank God for that!